I am going to classes, coming back, studying what i do in the classes, go out with friends,do everything ,in short that every one does.
And to escape the monotony of life,i read mindless novels,fantasy novels,and am an internet junkie. every obe sees my false smiles n thinks that i am really happy.I'm not!!
On the net,i first check out my blog,then watch some videos on youtube,etc. but none of this takes me away from the monotony of life.
I hate the monotony of life.I am good at doing things on a computer,my parents think that i am enjoying life,but i am not.
I hate the monotony of life.I am good at doing things on a computer,my parents think that i am enjoying life,but i am not.
i am just going thru the motions of life.
i know that what i will say next is shocking,but i don't care for anyone!!
i know that if some one who knows me reads this,they will be shocked and leave me,but i feel that i need to get it out of my system,my mind.My very soul cries out for me to atleast care for someone,but whom? when my sister told me a guy was stalking her, i showed i was angry and told the guy to fuck off,but i didn't feel any anger,i was just detached from the world,as i am detached now.
it's like i am watching this from above,and watch my body react with the expected reactions.
Am i a zombie?is that right or wrong??i don't know.
all i know that i want to escape the world,i don't want to live in this world. In the words of Robbie Williams's excellent song,Feel,"I don't want to die,But ain't i keen on living either."am i a zombie? who knows, maybe i am.i fake feelings for a girl,but i don't have feelings for anyone.is that shocking?i feel empty inside for almost as long as i can remember.
i know that what i will say next is shocking,but i don't care for anyone!!
i know that if some one who knows me reads this,they will be shocked and leave me,but i feel that i need to get it out of my system,my mind.My very soul cries out for me to atleast care for someone,but whom? when my sister told me a guy was stalking her, i showed i was angry and told the guy to fuck off,but i didn't feel any anger,i was just detached from the world,as i am detached now.
it's like i am watching this from above,and watch my body react with the expected reactions.
Am i a zombie?is that right or wrong??i don't know.
all i know that i want to escape the world,i don't want to live in this world. In the words of Robbie Williams's excellent song,Feel,"I don't want to die,But ain't i keen on living either."am i a zombie? who knows, maybe i am.i fake feelings for a girl,but i don't have feelings for anyone.is that shocking?i feel empty inside for almost as long as i can remember.
is it some thing that i feel alone?Y do i feel empty is a question i've never asked,but was forced to ask this when i read this post on the blog of a person i respect.:http://cruelvirgin.blogspot.com/do read it, it's very thought provoking.Atleast it did provoke this post.
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